“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?”
― Spencer Johnson,
As I haven’t done a personal blog in a very long time, it is about time…
Few people know this about me.. but I’m.. I am a bit scared of the camera.. Don’t get me wrong I love taking pictures of people and animals and all pretty things. I can spend hours looking over and over photos of the past and present…..
I honestly believe my passion for photographs started as a little girl paging through about 30+ leather, stuffy and old albums staring at people I would never know, people that kinda looked familiar… people I would value and be amazed at their beauty!
My Gran and even my mom to this day have too many to count photo albums and as a child in my Gran’s house I Loved to take out these old albums and look through them as if I knew these people with their straight up posses, pretty dresses, sitting and smiling at me.
The moment I took my first camera into my hand I knew I wanted to create those images that someone would one day stare at and be amazed at the same beauty and charm that I saw. This lead to a life time of always taking the photos at family events and being behind the camera.
But stepping out to be the focus point of any photograph is still to this day a scary though for me. In the amazing industry I am I have made some really amazing friends and one of them being Jean from Vanilla Silk Photography, she slightly “forced” me this week to face a real issue in my life..something that is not just related to photography but also an issue most women struggle with.
The issue of excepting yourself for who you are.. , how YOU feel about yourself and most important how YOU look at yourself.
In a world where there is no time to slow down or take a break it becomes hard not to neglect yourself. I am not talking about healthy eating or healthy living.
I am talking about the self appreciation you should have for you being YOU…. we are all so unique and special and that there is no one that is copy of who you are… most woman are always beating themselves down because they might not be a runway model or have the pretties hair in the world.
The moment came of realization of this lack of appreciation and self believe when I could not stop complaining to my friend about the amount of cellulite or double chin… not to mention being completely uncomfortable of what photos this camera will show of me …
the fact is looking at these photos I was really surprised as I saw a pretty picture of me??? this did not match the way i sometimes stare at myself in the mirror.. why you might ask, well for me I have lost touch with appreciating my own beauty and uniqueness, as I think of all the things I don’t like about myself there are just as many things I love.
This year so far has been a journey of being positive in a dominantly negative world, three months in and it has not always been the most easiest road.. but as I looked over and over again at these photos I realized that my positivity starts with how I value myself.
So to every client, every friend who reads this, I leave you with this message; make a point of finding time to value yourself and the amazing person who you are, life will then only be a little sweeter!
Photo credit: Jean Wilsnach ~Vanilla Silk Photography